Immature, childish, naïve, stupid, etc...
This is what I display to the world.
This is how the world perceives me.
But sometimes, I can't help but to think like an old man.
Haven't been using this space since... Forever. Anyways. Tomorrow's my last paper. Can't wait for it to be over and enjoy. Can't wait to laze around. Can't wait to get a job. Can't wait to hang out with my peeps. Can't wait to serve God's church :3
Feeling super blessed and loved today. Okay. That's true for almost everyday, but... Still!
I feel that God is truly amazing. Just want to thank Him for everyday.
I feel that whenever I feel down and hopeless, He's just there to pick me up.
Love the Lord :)
Well, there'll be after-exams celebration with my class tomorrow at the Tea Party! Whoohoo! :D can't wait at all. Also, looking forward to meeting Felicia :) hopefully I'll get to meet up and catch up with Tao, soon :)
God bless <3
I had been studying in school a lot for the past week.. it seems more productive.
Anyways, just wanna talk about how great God is. All the things that happened to me, no matter howw dark and grim, He was there for me. Companying me with His faithfulness, without fail. It is He, who had help shape me into who I am now. It was as if all the hate and resent I had for myself was washed away now. I no that there will be challenges ahead, but you no what? Now that I am certain of His love and faithfulness, I will not be as fearful for He is with me. Not that I won't fall. But because I no that Father, You will be with me and set me on my feet once more.
Yesterday was truly a long day for me.
It was exciting as we celebrated our classmate's birthday. Gave her a pleasant surprise by inviting Hilo (the name of ukulele) into her life. Haha :) the joy of giving!
Anyways, I was really tired during the last lesson.
Had sheperding session after that and it really got me thinking a lot about God and what I want and what I don't want.. stuff like that. Also, I got to know more about her journey on the road with Christ and I really admire her. I really pray that my passion for God will grow as I get to no Him more.
Later, I met my friend who had patiently waited for me for the two whole hours of sheperding. I really want to thank God for him. If it weren't for him, I would not have been able to look forward to school last year. And thank God that He planned for him to be in my life. Okay. Anyways, I couldn't get myself out of the thinking-mode after sheperding. Still feels really bad about it, but I feel that in the end, I got to no him more through our little talk.
Upon reaching home, I still did not manage to snap out of it. But I feel that that was what that got me to really keep thinking about God and Christ and the Holy Spirit and what I want to achieve..
I'm still unsteady, but I hope that one day the waves will stop getting so choppy and I can find the light to shore.
Lord, please be my lighthouse and lead me home.
I think I...
My grandfather is a remarkable old man.
Now, when I say "remarkable", I don't mean that he is a millionaire, an influential person in the politics, or a charity organiser.
In fact, he is just the regular old man, working in a petrol station, standing for hours in the oil-reeked place, despite the fact that his knobbly knees are giving up on him.
Everyday, without fail, the old man will rise as early as 4 am. He will first put the kettle on, then brush his teeth, wash his face. As he waits for the water to boil, he'll read the morning papers. Breakfast is just the simple combination of biscuits and tea. Then at 5 am, he will change into his uniform and make his way to the petrol station. He gets his bike ready and sets off.
Although the station isn't very far off, he take more than half an hour to cycle there. His knees are weak but his will is strong. Cycling keeps him healthy, he said.
To be honest, he just wants to be independent so that his children do not need to worry about him. So that he won't be "the useless old fellow", he admits.
He isn't a very rich man, as you can tell by now. He is thrifty. His meals are normally made up of rice, vegetables, vegetables and more vegetable. Again, he says that this is for his health.
Why save up, you may think.
Why? I asked myself.
And then I realised that all these money he could have spent for himself.. he gave it to us, his grandchildren.
Why don't you use it for your own, grandpa?
Because this is how I want to spend my money. On you.
He smiles.
And he has always been the lighthouse in my life, guiding me through the storm. Whenever I need a pair of listening ears, my grandfather will be there for me. Unlike most adults, he does not judge. He encourages instead. "Just because you are young does not mean that you don't no what is the right choice. The question is if you choose to step on the right path." And my lighthouse guided me, the lost little boat, out in the stormy seas.
Just like most of my post, there isn't any obvious point in this one.
:)