I don't wanna grow up
this is probably the reason for my absolute lack of maturity and sense
growing up proves to be tough and harsh
but i will learn to be strong one day

Perserverance and Maturity are the two things i seriously lack of..
but i shall not work hard for the Latter

"You need closure."
Three words that made me ponder.
Do I want to?

My answer is no.

However I wonder if that is the right thing to do. Maybe I should but my heart fears that it would pull me back into the darkness again.
Afterall it took me nearly 2 years to climb out of the horrible place where I came from.
If I fall back, will I be able to climb back to where am I now? How long would i have to take to return? Is it worth it?

So many things that I need to consider.
Most of all, I don't see the point in risking it. I may not love the way things is now but at least it is brighter. I don't have to go to bed knowing that tears await me, nightmare haunts me and fear taunts me; waking up knowing that I will have to put on a smile, plaster it on my fake face and go through the pain inside. Repeating this vicious cycle day after day.
Never.

Never again.

No. I found closure. At least, what I feel had settled my heart. I don't need to face it again.

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